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5 months: never say never

Adler turned 5 months last week. Since becoming a mother to the sweetest little boy, I've found myself surprised on more than one occasion by what I thought motherhood would be like vs. what it actually is. I wrote this list as a reminder of things that have surprised me the past 5 months. It reminds me about the importance of realistic expectations, prioritizing what's important, sacrificing my will, and appreciating the diversity in families as they learn what's best for their children. And it's encouraging to look back and see that even though my ideal plan wasn't executed, Adler is still a happy, healthy baby boy.

I never thought we'd send our baby to the nursery while we were in the hospital. I even wrote in my birth plan that the baby must stay in our room at all times. But that hospital nursery restored our sanity at 3am on our first night with Adler.

 I never thought that breastfeeding would be such an emotional process. My babe and I made a lot of progress, had a lot of challenges, and one of the hardest decisions I've ever made was to stop. Many tears were shed!

I never thought it would take more than 6 weeks to recover. But at 5 months postpartum, I'm still in physical therapy every week. Babies are totally worth it, but it doesn't make it any less difficult.

I never thought I'd give him a pacifier as soon as we got home from the hospital. Or want him to sleep in the same bed as us. Or give him food after 4 months. Those things weren't in my plan. But seriously...whatever works.

I never thought I'd run out of space on my phone. That I'd be compelled to document every little moment. That I'd get excited about EVERY first. Not just the smiles, laughter, rolling over milestones...but the ones only moms notice.

I never thought becoming a parent would make me understand my own parents a little more. My dad used to worry anytime I'd take a road trip with friends...even though I didn't think it was a big deal. But now I'm like, "ADLER IS NEVER DRIVING."

I never thought I could love someone so much, so instantly. My heart has grown x1000 since meeting Adler.  

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